moving right along...

so, the secret is out. we are buying a house!!!!!!!!!!! well, technically, we just bought it last night! can you believe it?! i will explain how we got to this point since nobody even knew we were buying until yesterday.

so we started casually looking for houses in early January, just online and stuff. when we moved into my mom's basement, we knew that we could take our sweet time and save money and really find something we would love and that was an amazing deal. we didn't think we would be out of my mom's basement for at least 9 or 10 months. so, we got a realtor (Doug Winder, my mom's neighbor who we have known since i was born and who is AMAZING!) and he was awesome at reassuring us to just look and take our time and not to rush us. Brett went and looked at a couple of houses with him, but i never went. i trusted Brett to know what i liked and what i don't. he came back both times and said he didn't like them, and he knew i would hate them.
so, Brett kept searching online and i did in my down time, but i wasn't super into it. well, when us girls decided to go on our girls trip to Arizona, Brett found a house in South Jordan and called me while we were there and said that it had just been put on the market and that he went and looked at it with Doug and he LOVED it! he said he had a super good feeling about it and that he wanted me to look at it the minute i got back from my trip. so right when i got home (3 days later) we went and looked at the house. i fell in love pretty much right when i walked in. it had everything i wanted (hardwood floors, tile countertops, well taken care of, a different layout then the usual, 3 stories, finished basement, a deck, a massive backyard that was big enough for a dog (or two) and had trees and shade, good safe neighborhood, close to friends and family, South Jordan...pretty much amazing!) and like Brett had felt the first time he had looked at it, i felt a really good feeling about it right when i walked in. and the feeling just got stronger and stronger as we walked throughout the house.
so right after we walked through, we put an offer on it that same night. we figured that we both felt good, and an offer didn't mean we were locked in just in case we changed our minds, so why not? well, Doug called us the next day and told us that our offer, out of the 11 they had, was the one they accepted. we were SO happy! we decided to really pray about it and make sure it's what was right for our family, and we felt like it was. and after dealing with stupid mortgage companies and their annoying demands and phone calls and all the proof they want that you have money in the bank, we closed on our home last night! i never thought in a million years i would only look at only ONE home then own it. i always imagined we would walk through 10 or 20 houses before we found one we loved and agreed on. nope, one house and that was it for me. and i haven't questioned it since either. it just feels right. and we knew we would regret it if we didn't buy it.
so crazy right?! no matter how much i talk about it, it still seems unreal. when did i get this old? where has the time gone? i don't know why, but i feel like buying a home automatically puts you in the category of "officially old." not like getting married or even having a baby puts people there, but buying a home does. i know it's dumb, but i have always thought of it like that. so now that i am "officially old" i can say that it actually feels different. i feel a huge sense of responsibility and nervousness. it is a similar feeling to when i brought Dylan home from the hospital, it was new and something i've never done it before and it was nerve-wracking. and now 9 months later, i can't even remember what life was like when Dylan wasn't here. it's so routine to have him here and to take care of him, i can't imagine not doing it. i imagine that after a few months of owning our own house, it will become the same. it will feel like we have always had it, can't remember life without it sort of thing. but not being there yet, i am a little nervous. i mean, it's a house. we just signed our lives away last night to a mortgage company who now pretty much owns us. but, i am SO grateful for it at the same time. like all things in life, if you aren't feeling scared or nervous it's not a big enough risk. at least that's how my life has played out. the things i was scared to do most turned out to be the things that i cherish the most and have zero regrets about. and i know this is one of them. we are terrified, but feel amazing about it! it's been so crazy! we get the keys Monday. we are so grateful that everything has gone so smoothly and we are finally going to be in our own home! Monday cannot come soon enough!!